life sucks

i'm all wide awake straight for 27 hours now. i'm tired. but i need to say something.

there are plenty of things i don't understand in this world. sometimes i try not to understand it. i dismiss my attitude in two words: "life sucks." but why? why don't we try harder to find the answers to our questions? maybe we do, but there aren't enough credible people around us that may be able to tell us if we're right or wrong. like why do i like a particular genre of music? maybe there's nothing wrong. maybe that's just how it is. but doesn't it sound a bit dense to just accept things as it is? i remember a favorite ely buendia line for people dissing his i-don't-care-about-you attitude... "take it at face value!" well, who ever said life is perfect? or any person is perfect? so we gotta just "take it at face value!" so life sucks. and i'm not making sense AT ALL.

i'm in good terms with Jane now. we spoke from the SM Mall of Asia to LKG Tower. we talk about no one else but Irene. she's been really crazy lately, that's why.

this may be my last post for the month. my heart is broken, and so is my pocket. i'm gonna smoke my life away until the 25th. it's my start date for DELL. i think this video below is going to be the song i'd be singing in my head until i'm over the stupid heartache.