ain't it?

i heard a strange song today. it goes like...

"my life is a whore
i'll always want more
gravity pulls"

by minus story

i feel so negative today. working environment sucks today. my officemates were trying their best to make the rift between me and jane disappear. i appreciate their effort but i guess it isn't a choice they make, is it? TSK! but i posed for the camera anyway. somehow i feel that i am looking through them now. i hate myself today.

Apol, a friend from college, also texted me today. she said she's 5 months pregnant. with all the pranks we made in college, i don't think she'd make me believe in this one. but it's possible. so i'm torn. i called her and there was no indication that it was a joke. but y'know how good we were then at this. we could go on for months making someone totally clueless that she/he's being spoofed. my reason that she may be serious can also be a reason that she's just spoofing me. so i don't know what to think. i can't sleep.

man, it's hard to sleep. i do feel sleepy. but somehow something crosses my mind and it bothers me. like the Jane ish' for example. ugh, it's like a rotten food in the freezer. my heart/mind as the freezer and Jane as the rotten food in there. it has a really foul odor now. i'd like to take it out but can't. or don't know how to. sometimes i think i'm so immature.

well, i guess i am. ain't i?