looooonnggggg wednesday

my back hurts. it's really cold here but i feel hot. not in a sexual way. literally hot. only slept for 2 hours. i had a final interview at DELL at 3:30 and now it's 6pm, i'm waiting for the German Silent Film to start at 8. after the film, i would have to walk my way to work. i'll be home tommorow. i'll probably arrive home by 10 am. i would be tucked in to sleep by 1pm. because i have this tv habit in between. so uh.. long day ahead. i think i'll be sick by morning.

y'know after the final interview, after Elvie told me the result, i was like walking in the air. i don't normally walk from the corner of Gil Puyat to Allied Bank, Ayala Ave but today i did and i din't mind. hehe. now i got blisters on my feet! and it hurts! haha! and now i'm thinking of reasons for leaving ACS. i've made really great friends there, and a worse enemy too. But i love it in ACS. It's just that, practically speaking, with the expenses i have today, i really need to get a li'l bit mature and prioritize my needs once and for all. ACS will not give you the proper compensation to meet the needs of its employees. say for example, regularization. it sucks. but then, the people in ACS are really warm and it feels like home. i will miss 'em so badly and i'll be really sad if i leave. damn i hate choices sometimes. and needs. why can't there be only wants? like when i was a kid. why can't i be just a child forever?

i think i'm already sick.