breaking the silence

it's such a bad timing. supposedly i have so much to say about today. if not for this little thing called "pathetic emotion" that's been bugging me. can't focus on just "enjoying myself."

well, i was contemplating about what dr phil had said on tv (yes, i'm a fan now) about anger. hate. and all other emotion that cause relationships to fall into pieces. one thing he pointed out was having "too much expectation." and when your expectation is not met, you sulk in the corner. how true. so he said it's better to expect less. i feel that it's what i've been going through. expecting too much and getting less. how tragic. hence, the motto: "if you can't change him, leave him." my friends were right. they said it seems i'm avoiding something. the point is, i'm easy to please. really easy to please. missing out on pleasing me is like... unimaginable. something must be wrong in the picture. and i don't want to change people. even god (as per movie: bruce almighty) cannot change a person. ever heard of the gift of free will? oh well...

i'm going home in a bit. i'm at some internet cafe now. today we watched X-Men in G4, played drum-revo in TIMEZONE, and went bowling in Makati Square. we did it all in a day. hehe. me, Irene, Jane, and the boys, bryan, dha, jay-r, ryan and ashley. it was fun. clean good fun.