BIG TUMMY but not a MOMMY

something happened today. i don't know if i should laugh about it or cry about it? one thing's for sure though, my officemates had a hell lot of laugh from it.

it was lunch time. i went to the pantry by myself because James and Adrian opted to smoke first because they eat. this caterer or server.. however you call her, she had this mouth mask on... because of course she was serving food... i was like "ate yun saken oh.."(pointing at the food) then i vaguely heard her ask "ilang buwan na po kayo?" i answered "six months," i thought she was asking how long i've been employed in DELL, until she commented "ang liit pala ng tiyan nyo pag nagbubuntis... " i was like "putanggina! ate hindi ako BUNTIS!" ha ha ha! and this guy from tech support overheard us, he said "ate napaka-harsh naman nyang tanong mo.." i said.. "oo nga.. si ate talaga.." i think my face flushed right then and there... I asked myself, IS THIS BIG TUMMY SITUATION THAT WORSE??!!" i was laughing about it but at the same time i'd like to tell her.. "Ate, gusto mo masaktan?!" ha ha ha! So i told my officemates about it and they were laughing until their stomach hurt...

Katwo's CHANGES...

whow, i just don't sleep, do i? ha ha ha! i've been in front of this PC for 5 freakin' hours now. fidgeting and looking for interesting things i've missed since i was thinking of work all the time.. ugh.

so look what i've found.. Katwo's statement about NARDA's break-up.. and oh, i've included Katwo's blog on my links too, check it out.. (=

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changes, changes, and more changes. Mar 8, '07 7:00 AM

according to the fire pig's feng shui forecast for me, this year is about changes, massive ones that will shift my life, and all that i have to do (to at least avoid harboring the evil intent that underlies my luck) is to realize it and brace for it. i have been purposely avoiding emails, yms and journals for the past week because, for one, narda is disbanding. i guess everyone's spoken up about it except me. to be honest, i really don't know what we're doing. tani and chuckie - i think, are very upset, hurt and surprise by the seemingly sudden approach to breaking off the band. i'm getting terribly guilty on the fact that nico's efforts on making a video (molotov - the black and white version which is supposed to be airing now) and creating a wonderful album cover are now in vain, parang lost investment na rin. narda has been such a great experience for me, it has taught me so much about life and about who i am. and yet the end seems so bittersweet. and i've been looking back for the last week, and asking myself - what the hell went wrong? then i have a theory - some bands form because of a strong friendship before the music. narda existed because we wanted to play, friendship happened along the way. everyone, except for ryan, auditioned for a role to play. it was his baby, it was really his band. and i respected that - kasi he had a dream and he went on and did something about it. without him believing in me (and sacrificing certain relationships with other band members in the process), i won't stand a chance thinking that i could front an awesome band, or enjoy life in rock and roll as much as i do. i guess it was also my passion and ambition for a rock and roll dream that made me loyal to this dream, until eventually it became our dream. it was always music before friendship, and the others, i guess, didn't last enough to realize that some friendships get tried and just like wine, gets better with time.

and now, i see ryan getting tired, disillusioned and betrayed with yaps quitting on us, the damn boy didn't realize he was such an important person who held the team together, and why - kasi ok lang na humirit siya pero kung hiritan siya di niya kaya. yaps didn't even know how much ryan fought for him, and i will not apologize for calling that kid ungrateful, at the least, and he repays him by being immature. some groups, bands, communities thrive on democracy, narda has always been autocratic in a sense. sometimes when there are too many voices, too many choices - nothing gets done. i remember the jet lee movie where he was supposed to kill this emperor but at the last minute he decided against it cause he saw that the emperor was gonna unite china - i saw the beauty that, in some cases, - IT MAKES SENSE TO SACRIFICE YOUR OWN AGENDA for the good of all, as long as the dictator is benevolent, things make sense. respect and compassion are traits of a good leader, sa japan nung may mga samurai pa, the bushido code specifies that if you are a compassionate leader people will be proud to bow down and be obedient to you. and i've always been that to ryan, that i took his side, and been loyal to him and proud of it and stood by his decisions, even if it hurt me or it underminded me at times. but that's what it takes to be a good team, and sometimes things that i was against before - turned out good in the end. so why the hell this litany? because it hurts me to let go of narda, and yet to see my partner tired and gasping for air and losing interest in his passion hurts me even more. we've released music and entertained until we bled our body, soul and hearts, and yet - to both ryan and i, the NARDA in us is tired with disappointments, broken promises, immature behavior, betrayals and the lack of big label support to be played on the radio - whoever s/he is wants to retire while s/he's on top.

also, 5 years na rin. i would love to take some time off to get married, fix things with my family, just really focus on 27+20, reconnect with friends and take tai-chi sunday mornings (like wake-up not after lunch). i do want to resume narda, if ever the chance comes along, but only with a major label backing, after all - narda deserves that - at the least. then, there's duster and several collabs with other artists that i am looking forward to.

i am heartbroken yet relieved, and grateful for changes.


Katwo of NARDA
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Spread the LUBE

Eggpie Dashwood dropped by the ML today. he asked to spread the lube.

RaKenrol!!!

but wait, there's more!

Lookie! see if you can find me on this video... :p



and there's a whole lotta' MORE! he he this one taken at the Tikman ang Langit Book Launch. i wrote about it here somewhere on this blog... **rolleyes** Markus joining CAmbio for a bit.



and oh, out of topic.. here's a link to a PUPIL gig which i attended last year.. it's not on youtube so.. here's the link to the video (Dulo Ng Dila by PUPIL in Saguijo)! this brings back memories.. and deym they're hot!

more of The Bitter Pill

I had probably tried every search fuckin' engine... i couldn't find songs from The Bitter Pill other than the two songs i've already heard. Anyhow, the song You and Me still haunts me. i can hear the song playing on my head all the time for chrissakes... "if it works i guarantee to solve the mystery, but at this rate it might be late so crack a smile for me.. Oh, it's a mystery you and me.." Now i gotta see them! i gotta' see them! i gotta see them Play! i've been flipping every gig-sched sites but there's fuckin' none... so uh... imu' have to settle with the 2 songs i got.


Here's a nice picture taken in Saguigo which i grabbed from their mailing list. There's Diego in Pink Shirt, Mong - looking cool without even trying and that guy from Join The Club (i think?) right behind the drums, Err above? he he.


Yup, i joined their mailing list. i even found Mong's biggest fan there, Shen... (that's her on that picture) weee! she was that girl i went to the NU rock Awards with. She stalks him. ha! ha! ha! nah, she loves Mong so much. she told me her grades got a lot, lot better when she became a vampire. hmm.. i wonder if i will get promoted if i become a vampire too.. he he of course that's silly. anyway, i miss this gurL.

can't wait to bLog? NoT!

the bitter pill



i am dying to hear more music from this band. one of the super-group as they call it. composed of Mong Alcaraz whom i'm so infautuated with, Diego Castillo - deym hot! Mikey Amistoso (Ciudad), Isa Garcia (Cousin Ed) whom i saw a few months ago in in Rockwell, and Pao Santiago of Join the Club. I have been googling thi band's official website in between calls and i couldn't find a decent one which has the basic information about them. so i enetered the band's name plus Mong Alcaraz on it and voila! they have a yahoogroup and a myspace account! too bad both are blocked from the server.. but i did found tidbits of information from blogs and other articles that managed to include slight elbow-brushing experience with the band. the song you are hearing (if you didn't turn the player off) is You and Me. I spent an hour looking for their songs. i found only 2. YOu and ME and JOPET. but apparently they also have this song called the Devil Makes Three. haven't heard it yet. my hunt is still on for more trivia and music about the band.

kape, yosi at internet ngayong gab-e

it's almost 5. it's another monday morning. i can see the traffic from where i sit. hmmm... in my hometown at this time of the day you can hardly see a vehicle running. maybe just a couple. it's only 4:35 am Rotonda is buzzling. i'm at my favorite internet shop. this is my favorite because it's cheap, airconditioning is great, it's safe, internet connection is fast, and people mind their own business! :D so i can watch porn vids and no one careS. ha ha ha!

i've been up all night, i noticed. not that i don't want to go home, it's just one of those times when i want to be alone in a crowd. i didn't go malling though, obviously because they're all closed. i just went to BlueWave last night. drowned my spirit in coffee and cigarettes. what would i ever do without those two? Hrmm.

Mitsa

ako.. lagi lang ako.. lagi lang ako.. ngayon ako Muli...

he he he. me copy+cat.

Pantalon

have i told you i am pnow addicted to NARDA? no not the song, the band!

There's this one song that keeps playing on my head.

minsan kahit sino ka man
pinanganak kang nakahubad
nabagok sumusubok
naglakad kang nakayapak
kung masikip tanggalin
nag-iiba nag panahon
nalulunod agad ang mga bata
hubarin ang pantalon
mahahanap kaya ang... (don't understand the lyrics here)

dati sinabi mo na
maayos ang lahat
bukas pag nag-iisa
gugulong ang iyong luha
kung masikip tanggalin
kung masikip tanggalin

nag-iiba ang panahon
malulunod agad ang mga bata
hubarin ang pantalon
mahahatak kaya ang
hubarin ang pantalon


that's the lyrics that i managed to understand. hahahahah!
uhm, i don't have a point really. the song just reminds me of my favorite pair of jeans that had already rested in peace last Monday because it doen't fit on my hips anymore. Uh-huh, that's how worse my weight problem is. i'm loosing my favorite thing. **sniff*sniff** all my friends are really worried now. =( i'm worried i'm going to run out of clothes. HRmmMm... time for shopping! weee!

oh dear. the past week and this week.. i've been to hell and back. work is so fuckin' tedious. i've shaken Hands with the country Manager because i WOWed a customer. hehehe. i'm pretty proud of that but that got me shaking to the bones because the BIG BOSSES were walking around me while i was taking calls and --- i was wearing slippers!!! hahahahahah!!! Michelle, my officemate was like, "oh my god girl they're looking for you, apparently one of your angry customers escalated their issue to Michael Dell..." however she was smiling so that was suspicious. hehe. And Jack Madrid (former management director of MTV) went back because i got a Green Alert! that means that the my Audited call was commended by the auditor. he said, "i think i'm getting used to going to this post... "

oh well, that's all folks. i'm hungry. my officemates are waiting for me to log the computer off. yosi and go home. sleep chaii SLEEP!

NARDA BANDA

my fascination for this band came quite a bit late. i happened to stumble upon their songs in multiply while i was browsing for stuff to put on my cheap 512Gb flashdrive. I downloaded Formika, their first album, which came after 2 EP's. it's easy to listen, lotsa synth, raw guitar, plus a kick-ass vocals. They've been around for about 5 years now. Ryan Villena (drummer) according to Wikipedia is a remnant of Tungaw. and there's Tani Santos the guitarist who replaced Wincy (whoever he is) is an active lister. The vocals is Katwo - cute name. Their influences according to their MYSPACE Profile are yeah yeah yeahs, sleater-kinney, le tigre, morningwood, sounds, ladytron, bikini kill, bis, bratmobile, the cure, franz ferdinand, the strokes, sonic youth, new order, etc..

I hate writing about facts on this blog. anyway, my first and most probably be my last encounter with NARDA in flesh was last year at the <5> lister's night in Saguijo. I remember i was a bit mesmerized watching Katwo with her megaphone shouting in a good tune, with those thick eyeliner and black boots, jumping like a pop-corn on a hot pot. really cool. i think rightafter then i added them up on my yahoogroup list. but i never opened until recently when at the height of my fascination Bernz told me they're disbanding because of these 3 main reasons: 1) their name is now a POP song more popular than them 2) the frequent change of line-ups (apparently they're getting tired of teaching every new member that comes along when someone leaves) 3) LESS breaks or opportunities. oh bugger. how sad. you can't really miss to appreciate their music when you hear it.

I have here a nice video of the band which i got from Narda's Myspace. Narda performing "Motolov" off their 2nd album which i heard is far more edgier and better - Discotillion. You can also visit them in their Multiply page if i got you really curious now. (;

BeMBanG HiBanG

""Sana'y hindi na lang pinilit pang wala ring patutunguhan kahit sabihin mo pang mahal kita..nalulungot,nayayamot,nabubugnot hindi ko pa yata kaya pang laban ang damdamin ko..Hindi ko pa yata kaya pang labanan ang damdamin ko REBOUND mo lang pala ako"" - BeMBanG HiBanG delacruz


i was just browsin' someone's friendster when i found this qoute. funny.

Sweeeeet!

- these are my new favorite local bands: (1)DRIP and (2)HEMP REPUBLIC i downloaded each of their first albums. i'm current enjoying it.

- additional workload. and it's getting harder. now we actually have to call customers back. we have to do follow-ups and all that. we have this tool that organizes those stuff. the problem is, i have like 5 trackers i should fill out before i can go home everyday! how stupid is that. but it's fun.

- my mother's in town. oh no.

- xuxu's in town as well. she's carrying the waves with her. this morning she was asking if i know where Nasugbu is. obviously, i was born there. i'm not so familiar with the folks along the seaside though because my grand parents were not fishermen, they worked in the rice field.

- nothing much to say.. i'm starting to the hols o fthis site. and starting to like some other. god tell me i don't have to start anew again. i hate doin' that.

- my birthday's near. so uhm.. how many group of friends do i have to treat out? ah, 3. **think** i'll be bankrupt right after i'm sure. maybe i'll just sleep... bah!

- Lian's fiesta is near! wee! and we're goin to Puerta Gallera on the 23rd Sweeeettt!


ta-ta.

Remembering the early days

if you've read the Tikman ang Langit book, you'd want to watch these videos over and over and over again...

Taste The Heaven (book launch)

without the lead head

Okay. **sigh** i don't know how to start my story. Actually, now that i've thought of it -- there's not much a story in here. only emotions. only reasons for these emotions. i've loved the E-heads almost all my life. I was one of the youth whose lives were greatly influenced by the music they shared (and milked from). when the band broke up -- I've only known of a few people who has the same opinion about it as i am. that it's bound to happen and there's just nothing we can do about it. i just didn't expect it to be this sad that on the day the devoted fans get a moment to express their love for the them one has to be somewhere else. i mean, come on. although i understaND THAT he have these grudges, i totally understand him. feeling betrayed by your best friends is totally devastating. but still -- i am saddened by his absence.

however, the show went on without the lead head, anyway.

the Markusian Delight
the fans were delighted. i was delighted to see Markus. y'know what i bought the American Gurl cd with Markus' signature on it. a friend of Schizo who went here just for vacation sold it to me. apparently he was the official distributor of the CD in the states. really now? i totally think it was a rip-off. but i bought it anyway for 200P. he initially said 250P, the hell? there were only 6 songs! but at the back of my head i was thinking: i'll sell my blood for it. hehehehe. well what i'm driving here at is this - in the book launch Markus played second to Lei of Prettier than Pink, he sang all of the songs in that EP. he also played a couple of Eheads ditties. he have this flamboyant guitar skill, he was so freakin' good. it's as natural writing on a paper. it looked that easy for him. and it sounded so good. i think i'm repeating myself. :x

here comes the cosmic gUrl
after Markus' last song, he commented he has to stop because Raymund had finally arrived and he's late; Cambio is ready to play. so this cosmic gUrl -- dressed in something that looks like a shirt and a skirt in one went up . i'm confusing you. i'm not so good at describing things y'know. bear with it. anyway, she was also sporting a curly hair with a bang plus a big yellow-rimmed sun glasses. her red doll shoes were worn out and dirty but it looked quite good on her. of course i couldn't NOT recognize her, she was the gUrl that replaced ely when he left the band. i remember during an interview before, when the three heads were asked WHY her? they say because she's COSMIC... that's Kris Gorra-Dancel. She sang songs off their new album that's coming up --- very easy to listen to. then they played Magasin. that was when this Comic gUrl summoned Markus to come up on stage. she said she's not worthy to be at the stage and she should be right with us, watching the 'heads play because she's apparently a fan as well.. she ended that monologue with an "oh well, here i am now..." hehe. whatever. anyway, when Markus came up, the only lyrics he let out was "hindi ko na alam ang susunod.." or something like that. it was funny. i found what a happy quirky person Markus was. When Robbie (their former manager prior to Ann Angala) was talking in front he was like making ZZzzzZZzz noises with a mic. but he's nice. he must have missed those golden days. people were mobbing them after the set. but Markus was so game to be mobbed. i think he enjoyed it. hehe. when Bernz came up to him to have his book signed he wrote Buddy instead of his name, hehehe.. that was because he was answering some interview for INQ7 at the same time. he was being interviewed by that chic on the picture above. she's from Inq7 i presume because she posted that picture in this article (<--click here for link).

the Book
i've read the book page by page. personally, i think i could have done something better. that's just my opinion --- being a total heads fanatic myself. i mean, they should have solicited articles from Jim Ayson, Schizo, Jeng Tan of the former Kelt's Kross(raims's ex-gf), Ann Angala (former manager), and some more people who were once a part of the heads' world during their glory days. but then again, that would be too much for media to feed on. he he he.

can't wait to blog

uh-huh. i can't wait to blog.

- went to the TIKMAN ang langit booklaunch in Powerbooks Greenbelt. met up with Bernz (never failed to sweep me off my feet.. he gave me a cd of eheads' RX session) and Nina. Met new friends... Timmi - the gurl who went there because apparently she was inspired by her cousins - something of that drama. Also met Julius - no comment. hehe. Also got to meet Leigh. a hardcore <5> lister. and Tani, where art though is Tani? didn't talk to him but i planned to 'cause i need a Revolver shirt.

- anyway, it was fun. details when i have the time.

- sleep is a stranger to me now. damn.

- Chris Padilla noticed me in the ML. waaaaa!!! "he said let's hang out some time... take care..." oh freak! i'm super infatuated ! i can't take him off my head! is this love? is this love? is this love? so there he is now --- on my desktop's wallpaper... hehehe

- i enjoy listening to Chillitees these days. the band who made me doze off in Saguijo before now makes my day complete... next week i'll be listening to NARDA. they're also good.