typically boring

my plan for today's blog was supposed to be about the TOP 5 people who influenced my life. i changed my mind. i am currently in the process of re-evaluating my life, (err.. when does that re-evaluation ever stop?! - hehe) i won't be able to give a good judgment of things.

now what should i blog about? HRmm.. i don't know. i remembered last week i chatted with gibs in YM.. he asked how i am doing, i answered "nothing much. life is typically boring." so i ask myself, is my life typically boring? evidently i speak before i think, right? hahaha! well.. it shouldn't be. i always receive forwarded messages that asks me to count my blessings not my misfortunes so i'll be happy. and honestly, i do what they say. i'm not so demanding, really. but then, why do i say my life is boring? i love my job.. i love the pay as well. i'm free to go wherever, i burn my lungs anytime i feel like doing so... but what's missing? what makes me happy? or maybe the question is - AM I REALLY unhappy? or is it just a little screw loose in my head? maybe that's why the movie said Happiness has to be pursued... because it's not an everyday feeling. it's not being at a state of satisfaction. what the hell.. go watch that fuckin' movie so you'll know what i mean.

the only thing i noticed though is that the past is like my body hair. you cut it down but its root is still there and it grows all the time.