last hours

i only have a couple of hours to pack up my things. i freakin' forgot the "pasalubong" for my friends and cousons they will fuckin' kill me. haha! i'm going to be hung on the cross i swear! my last day though was fun. i got to meet my friends in college Kristin, Apol, Ziphy, and Divine... Kristin and I went to the Marine Laboratory we used to hang out in college. We met up with Ma'am Nitz my thesis ADVISER! also met up with Ii, Dindin, Gay (who works there), Fra-and, and Vierne the gayslut. hahahaha! we reminisced the good ole' days. rightafter that Kristin and I wnet to DUnkin to meet up Ziphy and Apol...Apol once told me she was pregnant when i was in Manila - my god! my tummy is bigger than hers! hahahaha! we went to Lim Ket Kai, grabbed some Pizza and went to High Ridge - to take pictures! hahaha! those guys are still as crazy as they were before. rightafter that i met up with my ex whose face i believe is too familiar to you now. hehe. he burned me a couple of CD's with half of the mp3's he has on it. hehe! then we joined his friends Jacob, Chico and Stanley; had several shots of Redhorse and tons of laughter. hehe. then he treat me to dinner - because it's gonna be the last time we see each other. amazing! we've made several lasts! hahahah! we talked bit. friendly talk. which reminds me of what Jai told me a day before i flew here... "You only have two choices, either to be friends with him or comletely ignore him for the rest of the years to come, there's no in-between." well...i guess i chose to be friends with him. crazy but - i can't live without him either. for some weird reason in spite of how i hate him and try to curse his flesh and bones there's still this lingering "hope" that it's going to be the two of us together in the end, i know it's like 1 out of 1,000 chances that it'll happen but; which brings me to a NEW YEAR's RESOLUTION i forgot to include: 8) EXPECT LESS ...uh-huh! or not expect at all. not necessarily in the love department but with other people. expectation causes disapointments, and disappointments causes bad relationships. so expect less.

OKAY it's 4:30 in the morning! time to pack pack pack!