WHATEVER HAPPENED TO FREEDOM?!?

i feel that this weekend will be my most horrible weekend. EVER.

i don't want to go to Batangas. Why is she (my cousin) so fucking demanding? She don't own me! and neither do i owe her anything! i lived in their place when i was starting up, yes, but that doesn't give her the right to control of my LIFE!

i feel like a child again; dragged by my mother at some place i don't like when all i want to do is stay home and play! damn it. that's a stupid reminiscent of my childhood.

first of all, i don't like to speak with my cousin. let alone get stuck with her the whole freakin' weekend. not that i hate her, i just don't like her train of thought, y'know. she's kind and all, but i don't like how she talks about some of our relatives. it's OK that she talks about jesus, but i hope she doesn't speak of it as many times as she does because it's making me nuts! and i hate how she protect me. she's not my mother. i hate the way she demands. what she wants is to make her the center of my life. she want me to like what she like or do what i she does.

she called me yesterday afternoon. i told her the latest i could pick her up is 4pm. she was like - WHY? i went.. "because i'm going out with my officemates after the shift.." she said something like, "Just because of that? you're going to move the time?" with a smirk. GGGRRR. well, i happen to like their attitude better!

this shouldn't really be so bad actually. i can take the boredom the provincial air brings. but this SUNDAY is Ely's Benefit Concert... *sigh* WHATEVER HAPPENED TO FREEDOM?!? all i want to do this weekend is watch gigs with Radz, meet old gig-buddies and sleep during the day. In Saguijo by the way this Saturday night is SONIC BOOM prod feat Urbandub, Hilera, Typecast, Dicta License, Faspitch, Switch, and The Ambassadors... now i'm REALLY going to cry.

Live Ely Live

This is a poster of the benefit concert for Ely BUendia on January 28, 2007. NO Entrance FEE but a donation basket will be passed around. This will be held in Eastwood Central Plaza.

Elytistas UNITE!

(= (ye right, huhuhuhu)

BULLET-in

• i totally pity Jasvil. she's now facing something that even science can't defy: a loved one's death.. i feel sad myself for her. totally. my heart is on the ground


• i learned a trivia about ely's first born, Una - she has friendster!!! and she's a very cool chic. yep, chic. she's now 16 years old.


• i learned a new proxy site! weee! opethelia.com, i also learned the better way to delete cookies! hehe! lurkers..


• Dell Rocks on Saturday (venue: eastwood central plaza), Rivermaya is playing and i have to go to Batangas!!! bummer. and on Sunday Benefit concert for Ely BUendia and i will be in Batangas!!! bummer. LIFE IS UNFAIR! why do i need to put family first? **sniff-sniff**


• i got a hundred percent in Customer Satisfaction last week according to the survey. EAT THAT Michael Dell! hehehehe
  
• the blush album review is still in progress. i've had several drafts but they're pretty lousy. deym.

d-e-a-t-h

Some possible philosophies of death and dying:

1. Death is an interruption to life, like sleep or disease, only permanent. Life is to be lived in spite of it. It is the end of our projects, an interference with them, not something to be integrated. This would be the case for both ourselves and those we love.

Two attitudes are then possible: (a) ignore it, and live life in spite of it; or

(b) rebellion: "rage, rage, rage, against the dying of the light" (Dylan Thomas). Cf., in D. Hawe's notes, Sartre p. 3, Pascal, Nietzsche and Epicurus, p. 6, for the first; and Camus, p. 7 for the second.



2. Death or rather dying ought to be considered, rather as the culminating act of life, in which a person expresses who s/he is, what they stand for, what his/her life is all about. This might happen in two ways:

2(a) via the circumstances of the death or by the manner of dying or both: an external and internal expression of what their life is all about. E.g. Jesus, Socrates, the martyrs.

2(b) Whatever about the outer circumstances and perceivable manner of death, death provides for all an opportunity for an internal expression of what they are all about, a "final option" ratifying their "fundamental option" or perhaps modifying it, this being part of dying. Cf. K. Rahner, Theology of Death.



3. Death is to be considered as part of life, something which every person has to come to terms with, in order to live well, part of what is involved in accepting our finitude. In Heidegger's language, human being is being-towards-death, this is one of the existentialia of Dasein, one of the structural features of human existence as such, which has to be assumed if we are to live authentically (cf. Heidegger, notes p. 7).[1] Cf. also Lochet in the notes, p. 8: "...no one becomes truly adult unless he assumes and accepts his birth and his death; for to be truly a [human being] one must accept the human condition..."



4. Death is to be considered as a transition from this life to the life that really counts, eternal life.

This latter is usually conceived in terms of a soul surviving the body, via a view in the West going back to Plato; but a kind of immediate resurrection as postulated by Schillebeeckx, David Coffey and others is also conceivable. Whatever, it's the next life that counts, and death is not something to be feared, at least not for those who die in the grace of God. Like a butterfly shedding its cocoon.

(But in traditional religiosity, unfortunately, there is also hell and suchlike, and frequently in the popular imagination and popular preaching in the past most people will end up there --which can sometimes make even 1, which is either agnostic or negative in respect of an afterlife, more acceptable. Cf. Hume, Dialogues XII.)



5. As with 4, but taking away the idea that this life is for the sake of the next one, only some kind of trial, in so far as this tends to devalue this life (= the 'porch' view of life). Eternal life starts here and now, the kingdom of God is already among us. Perhaps more emphasis would be put on bodily resurrection and the final coming of the kingdom, which is a social and cosmic event which affirms and validates our work here and now as well as liberating it.



6. Death is to be considered as a transition from this life eventually to another life of much the same kind, better or worse according to one's deeds (karma): doctrines of re-incarnation. Like 4 above, but not quite so final: we'll get another chance to do it right. This sometimes combines with views like 4: re-incarnation as the wheel of re-birth, final salvation = to get off the wheel of rebirth.


Source:http://members.optusnet.com.au/~gjmoses/DEATH.htm

the best ride

every motorcycle ride experience has always been a great experience for me, whether it's "habal-habal" or a scooter. i like hitching a ride on a motorcycle.

so uhm, Sunday night.. i texted a friend..

Chaii: Radz, u awake?
Radz: Yes. y?
Chaii: Gala tayo.
Radz: sa'n naman tayo pupunta?
Chaii: Kahit saan
Radz: Wala pa akong tulog e.
Chaii: Bukas ka na matulog, hehehhe.
Radz: Ok, ligo lang ako.
Radz: Sa'n naman tayo pupunta?
Chaii: Kahit saan. basta. d2 na lng tayo usap.
Radz: Sa'n ka ba ngayon?
Chaii: Starbucks. Greenbelt.
Radz: Sino kasama mo?
Chaii: Ako lang.
Radz: E, san nga tayo pupunta?
Chaii: Basta.
Radz: O cge, ligo lang ako.
Chaii: Cge, hintayin kita.
Radz: Ano nga pala ginagawa mo gan?
***kulit****
Chaii: Coffee, galing me simba.
---- fourty-five minutes later -----
Radz: Sa'n ka banda?
Chaii: Starbucks Greenbelt nga.
Radz: Hindi, san banda sa starbucks
Chaii: Sa labas, malapit sa tree.
Radz: Ok. motor lang pala daldalhin ko, sana OK lang.
Chaii: O ba. ayos nga yan.
Radz: OK. on the way na me.

ten minutes later, i saw a very familiar shadow---Radz's. we scoured for something to eat in Tapa King in the wee hours of the morning. it was fun. we never run out of things to talk about and laugh about. right after that there went the very stupid question again.

Radz: O, san na tayo pupunta?
Chaii: Hanap tayo ng maiinom.
Radz: Cge.

after several brainstorming for a perfect place to hang out at 1pm, we finally came to a conclusion that that we go to some waterhole in near Rockwell.

so there starts one of my best mototrcycle ride. hehe. cruising the highway in the middle of the night. going wherever fate takes us.

finally we stumbled upon a billiard hall in Mandaluyong, because the one in Rockwell kind of got erased from the map. haha. we played 9-ball. drank a bottle of beer. the funny thing was, my stomach did not agree with the beer. after i declared bottoms up, i went looking for the comfort room and puked the hell out of me. ugh. i didn't tell Radz until after we're done with our game. hahahah. because i made quite a mess in the comfort room. eeeww. anyhow, the puke aftermath feels good.

when he took me home, my roommate was there. at home. which is a relief for me because i don't like to turn him down in case he asks for something i couldn't give him at that time. i don't want to tell him all about the "dramas" i've been through to defend that refusal. hrmm, y'know what i mean. i'm weak at putting people down. he said that he would love to stay longer. i said "maybe next time, we can watch movies together.."

the previous months my days have been dark as a stormy weather. i could pull off a smile or two at certain points but at the end of the day it was confusion, darkness, solitude, anger.. i had no peace of mind. yesterday i felt different. it feels like the sun's shining right down on me. It's a really great feeling. suddenly i never thought of dramas or sad goodbyes and whatnots. i probably spent all day day dreaming about the person i was with the night prior.

strangely today i asked Mitch what's the sign of being in love (like a smitten 12-year old): she said it's when YOU "can't eat, can't sleep, and you reach for the stars over the fence." she said she got it from a movie.

oh really now.

the previous post below is the song that plays on my head when we were cruisin' down the Highway at the wee hours of the morning. untiil now i still hear it at the back of my head.

untitled again

In the deep of the night i look over my shoulder you look so fine a spectacular sight i feel you hold me close ans take my breath away... you say you want me to decide hit or miss i cannot lie what is this we have that completes me i delay the hour but... something's gotta give you say i gotta say it in the deep of the night i look over my shoulder you look so fine a spectacular sight i feel you hold me close ans take my breath away... could you spare me a bit more time rest assured there will be a sign 'til i'm ready for my number so at least don't let me pretend something's gotta give you say i gotta say it in the deep of the night i look over my shoulder you look so fine a spectacular sight i feel you hold me close and take my breath away...-Highway, Imago

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kay tagal kong sinusuyod ang buong mundo para hanapin, para hanapin ka nilibot ang distrito ng iyong lumbay pupulutin, pupulutin ka sinusundo kita, sinusundo asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo sa akin mo isabit ang iyong lumbay di kukulangin ang ibibigay isuko ang kaba tuluyan kang bumitaw ika’y manalig manalig ka sinusundo kita sinusundo asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo handa na sa liwanag mo sinuyod ang buong mundo maghihintay sayo’ng sundo - sundo, imago.

BLUSH ALBUM REVIEW SOON!!!

Satisfaction Guaranteed!

at the start of the week i was welcomed by a disappointing news. based on the gossip i got, i am at the bottom of the stack ranking. the gossip turned out to be true. i'm at rank 77 - 1 as the highest - among 95 agents. motherfucker, i said to myself, i am out of here. yes, i definitely thought of that. evidently i totally miss CDO and one more snap and i'm packing my bags up. the airport is just a walking distance from where i live, i thought. i mean.. i can get another job? right? my officemates were telling me that it's a good choice so you can be with your family but how about the things you've earned here? are you going to throw that away with just one disappointment? Microsoft is putting up an in-house call center right beside this building.. **lightbulb** hehe.. so when i had a Coaching Session with my Team Manager. She was telling me i'm goddamn crazy to even think of quitting. it's just the start... then the day went on.. monday became tuesday.. tuesday became wednesday ---- now it's thurday - my day. from the first call to the last had SATISFACTION GUARANTEED stamp on it. hahahaahah! Dell wants customer satisfaction? Dell fuckin' got it! My Team Manager listened to my call a while ago discreetly and she was laughing at the customer because the customer was talking to me about Elvis and how cold it is in their place. he even said i should visit him some time. hehehehe. which makes me realize - damn i love this job. and as long i keep loving it sooner or later it will definitely love me back. that's what Bryan (my supervisor in my previous job) had taught me.

so let me qoute Mitch... "Kemmmmmbbbboootttt" ***wiggle-butt*** hahahahaha! now this calls for another round of Mini Choco Fudge!!!! yum yum i can hear Jane telling me "ESTRELLA kumakain ka na naman?!?"

what a loser

ain't i a loser. it's a freakin' Sunday. and i'm here at the office: scrubbing cases. life is unfair. there's nothing else to do and nowehere else to go anyway. my roommate has left me, my friends have work later, Radz is... uh, i don't like hanging out with him. although he's nice and dandy, i hate the way he talks about how boring his work is. i don't like hearing complaints like that because it connotes that he's one darn lazy boy. one time i asked him if he had watched the pyrotechnics in the Mall of Asia, he replied, "what is pyrotechnics?" oh boy... he has a Really Big problem. So uhm... i am fulfilling one of my new year's resolution: no boys for this year.

i woke up really early this morning though. i promised my friends in DirecTV that i'd drop by last night but i wasn't able to. so i had to drag myself off my bed at 5am to go to Makati. me, Irene and Angel went to smoke in Starbucks, ate in McDo and later decided to go to JR's place - it's their Fiesta. amazing! i never thought people in Manila are celebrating Fiestas. hehe. so despite an aching throath, i sang my heart out in Lisa Loeb's Stay. Good thing i wasn't able to find Alanis Morissette on the playlist otherwise i'm sure as hell i'd have no voice by now. hahahaha!

and also, Irene and i had some heart-to-heart talk while we were riding a jeepney. apparently Dennis and her are still texting each other despite Cookie (Dennis' girlfriend) being around. She asked me for the reason why i told Dennis to quit bugging her - deep breath - i think the reason is clear as ice. then she bugged me about JK. i told her, in a nutshell, we're almost on the same situation - we love someone too much. too freakin' much that we are taken for granted and set aside. we figured that men are a bunch of stupid creatures. they don't know what they want. they let their libido control them. for example Bryan - he left his girlfriend for 3 years for a 21-year old half-spanish girl who rides a Pajero... now he's complaining about the fight they had and tellin' me "maraming babae jan pero hindi lahat nakakaiin.." the fuck?! hahaha! so i told Irene - let them stupid guys be. sooner or later they'll find out what they've been missing.

feels like heaven

these were pictures were taken in heaven. heaven that's just 100 feet above the ground. from there you can view the city of Cagayan de Oro in its all heavenly splendor. (exaggeration of course)hehe. but it's nice out there. we can see the entire city from there. well? almost. They call it Heaven because it's where girls and boys make babies. hahaahhahah! y'know what i mean. it's been a while since i was with these folks. That girl in blue shirt is Kristin - she's taking up a Master's degree in Silliman; the one in white sleeveless is Apol she's in med school together with Ziphy who is that petite girl in white med uniform; and Divine is that chubby girl in green who works in a call center in Cagayan. We missed Janice here- she was always the Comic, she's in Med school somewhere in Manila.











Enjoy the weekend!

Just a quickie

i have been. well. been sweating over my cases since the start of my working day in January. i don't know what's fuelling this sudden rush of diligence. it's weird.
also made a new blog. i'll post my dramas right there. weee. too bad these days i don't have much dramas. for some reason. i'm happy joy joy all the time. so what if i'm slowly dying. so what if no one loves me. heck, screw 'em all! as long as i got a cig to puff i'm all good. work's keeping me busy.

holy cow Pakingshet, GRACE

HOORAAY TO THE PIG!
hahaha, doesn't it sound funny. of all the animals, why does it have to be the pig?! why not FISH? hehe. Oh yes, i'm dearly affected because this year is My Year. i was born 1983 - Year of the Pig. And according to MIra's Post in Friendster:

"Expect the best year of a twelve-year life cycle. Pigs benefit greatly from the energy of their own year. Good fortune is foreseen in romance, family affairs, and business endeavors. New ventures bring success. Pigs could inherit or find money. An excellent year for marriage, romance, or having a child. Luck is with you throughout the year.

which means this year i shall be wealthy! with love... (= hehehehe. how charming.
anyway, during the weekend i did nothing but sleep and shut my motherfuckin' mouth up!
1) had a fever
2) there's a lump on my throath, and i'm afraid i'm gonna
loose my voice if i don't quit talking
3) left wisdom tooth hurts urgh
4) my head has slightly pounding pain
5) had running nose
so i was exiled in my bed the minute i got home in Saturday at about 12pm. i woke up 12pm the next day Sunday. hahaha! that's like 24 hours of sleep man! but i felt better right after. i went on a Zhang Ziyi movie marathon. Then I went to church to hear a mass, starbucks was jampacked, i had no YOSI for crying out loud, Rustans was closed at 9 fuckin' o'clock how silly! but at least i heard mass, despite not being able to smoke. hehe.

oh dear, the internet connection is very slow. been online for 3 hours and i haven't opened the sites i need to open except for Friendster. holy cow pakingshet.

i want to change my name. i want to change it to GRACE...

who needs an overhaul?!?

honestly, i am noticing it. this blog needs a major overhaul. i mean content-wise.


die! chaii! die!

Grrr. i'm not feeling well. my throath hurts. i have a bit of a fever. my head is swirling and my wisdom tooth hurt. ugh. in addition, Chanel - a college friend of mine who's now in Med School - said that my Lymph node case is actually malignant. i told her it's only a fucking infection, dude.. don't scare me like that! she was insistent and said there are only two possilities: infection or cancer. cancer grows big. mine was a bit larger before until i started taking the heavy duty med it degraded in size. or maybe i just got used to the size that i now think it's normal? holy crap.

anyway, who cares if i die?


overlapping commitment

Mu' cousin Donna texted me last night. she said she's wants me to go with her in Batangas (my father's hometown) because it's my niece's birthday: they're gonna' have some kiddie party! happy joy joy! Well, she never gave me an option to say No. she said my grannies were looking for me and i have gifts to give (including hers). now came my Supervisor, reminding me that she's going to put me on a WaitList to get a leave on the 26th. it suddenly occured to me that i and Celia will climb some mountain in Bulacan. we decided on that about December last year. so which weighs more: Friends? or Family?

oh well.

Jai&Jane sitting on a tree! K-I-S-S-I-N-G!

Jai just got off from a traumatic relationship. broken; evidently looking for someone to love and love him back. Jane on the other hand has been waiting for someone to love her for a long time. it's like a lock and key. it's a match! hahahaha! and it's because of MEEEEE **big smiley** i didn't introduce them personally but i gave Jane number to Jai back in Chowking baclaran when we were looking for DVD to waste our time on. i told Jai Jane is a little naiive. haven't had a boyfriend ever since. hehe. so there, Jai got interested. initially i was completely thinking that he's only looking for virgin girls to devirginize. **raise brow** that's why i was a bit hesistant to although now i still think the same, i'm not regretting what i did. Jane has been sending me messages on the Intant Messenger every now and then asking me about Jai. hahahaha. and of course i won't divulge any not less i'm in front of Pizza Hut's Hawaiian Pizza! hahaahhaha! Jai on the other hand has been texting me to greet Jane HI for him. Swweeeeetttttttt!!!


additional note: what do i do with this blog? fuck i don't know!!!

last hours

i only have a couple of hours to pack up my things. i freakin' forgot the "pasalubong" for my friends and cousons they will fuckin' kill me. haha! i'm going to be hung on the cross i swear! my last day though was fun. i got to meet my friends in college Kristin, Apol, Ziphy, and Divine... Kristin and I went to the Marine Laboratory we used to hang out in college. We met up with Ma'am Nitz my thesis ADVISER! also met up with Ii, Dindin, Gay (who works there), Fra-and, and Vierne the gayslut. hahahaha! we reminisced the good ole' days. rightafter that Kristin and I wnet to DUnkin to meet up Ziphy and Apol...Apol once told me she was pregnant when i was in Manila - my god! my tummy is bigger than hers! hahahaha! we went to Lim Ket Kai, grabbed some Pizza and went to High Ridge - to take pictures! hahaha! those guys are still as crazy as they were before. rightafter that i met up with my ex whose face i believe is too familiar to you now. hehe. he burned me a couple of CD's with half of the mp3's he has on it. hehe! then we joined his friends Jacob, Chico and Stanley; had several shots of Redhorse and tons of laughter. hehe. then he treat me to dinner - because it's gonna be the last time we see each other. amazing! we've made several lasts! hahahah! we talked bit. friendly talk. which reminds me of what Jai told me a day before i flew here... "You only have two choices, either to be friends with him or comletely ignore him for the rest of the years to come, there's no in-between." well...i guess i chose to be friends with him. crazy but - i can't live without him either. for some weird reason in spite of how i hate him and try to curse his flesh and bones there's still this lingering "hope" that it's going to be the two of us together in the end, i know it's like 1 out of 1,000 chances that it'll happen but; which brings me to a NEW YEAR's RESOLUTION i forgot to include: 8) EXPECT LESS ...uh-huh! or not expect at all. not necessarily in the love department but with other people. expectation causes disapointments, and disappointments causes bad relationships. so expect less.

OKAY it's 4:30 in the morning! time to pack pack pack!

New Year Blues

i spent the first minutes of the year with my family. we took countless pictures and videos, lighted numerous fireworks, sang our hearts out and laughed out loud. hehe. basically we all had a blast. totally better than last year.

so now it's time for my new year's resolution. last year my new year's resolution came really late - i made it in June! hahahhaha! now i decided to be on time because it's how it should be. evidently things like this is already a cliche. anyone naturally breaks it. if not after a day, in about 2-3 hours. funny but true. i could not be certain that the promises i am about to make to myself for this year will endure but i will give it a shot.

1) stay away from intimate relatonships - yep. this year i'm closing my door for the so-called LLLoooovvveeee. my last one was a bit traumatic. so this year i'd like to stay clear from those things. let me qoute Gerald Gamban's words - an officemate of mine - "kapag pagod na ang puso, utak naman..."

2) love your job so your job will love you - i believe late last year i wasn't that focused on my job. now i promise to do my best all the time. it will be hard and it will be exhausting but one should sow to reap.

3) Sundays should be Lord's day - this one is hard to make. i'm skeptical if i can follow this all through out the year.

4) SAVE SAVE SAVE - need i say more? my plan is to set aside a part of my salary every other friday as if i'm paying something in installment.

5) READ READ READ - just like the previous point, Reading is also a great investment. in 2006 all i did was go out or watch TV. this year it's time to feed my mind once again with worthy things.

6) love thyself - life may become tosy-turvy and situations may get uncontrollable but nothing compares to a foot spa and skin exfoliation. i should do it often this year.

7) if chance and time will allow, i'll do the thing i've dreamt of doing all my life... this year. **wink**

Those are the only promises i can remember for at this time. i might add some along the way. i didn't put there that i'd stop smoking though because i know i won't. hehe.

2006 Review of Events

first post for the new year 2007! hooray! hooray!

i'm going to start with the Highlights of the year that had been--2006. i think it was a great year for me.

***moving out - back in early february, i decided to move out from my relatives' place. i moved in with a roommate in Paranaque - near the airport. budget was tight, rumors were high but nothing stopped me from living on my own. it's a pretty neat place, plus the neighborhood's real fine. no one cares even if i go home at 5 in the morning.

***Officemate bouts - by 2006 i had became so close with my officemates, there had been a few times when our egos collided like train meeting a train in the nozzle at 120kph. i couldn't hide my angst, i thought i had to put it on this blog. luckily, they seldom browse this. hehe. but if i talked badly about them, it's only because they're very important to me. **wink**

***meeting the PUPIL and the YAHOOgroupies - after the band plays, it's the groupies who stay and chat with the band. let me name them, see if i can still remember their names: Ianne, Marz, Norie, SUE... i don't remember 4 more names! haha! anyways, they're all cool--- tho some may be very KIKAY, but they got great pupil stories to tell. hehe. And the band. oh the band. they're a bunch of cool folks. Ely is a fun person - really! but i never got to talk to him because i'm too shy... Dok, he's so damn handsome. Sue loves him. Yani - i don't like is aura. for some reason, but he's friendly to the groupies. BOGS, my ex-boyfriend, ugh! (in my dreams) hahahahah! he's so friendly! he'll buy you a beer even if you've just met.


***the Bryan and Tina break-up - this could have been a normal break-up. at first it looks so normal. i've seen so many relationships and this one i thought was just like them. however when the gossips kept pouring in and their body language becoming more and more evident, there's no mistaken --- it is going to be SO fuckin' messy. And messy it was. Tina even wrote one of Bryan's best friend a letter of bitterness and anguish which i posted on this blog. Jane was so pissed off and until now still could not get over it. Badeth was also ticked off, saying, Bryan has changed but has now adapted the change i believe. as to me - i don't give a damn.

***Leaving ACS, Joining DELL - it was probably the hardest decision of my career (what career?!? hahhaha). i treat my teammates as brothers, sisters, and bestfriends. they make work seem like mere play to me. at times of trouble, they're always there to give me pieces of advice. i'll always be grateful. Now joining DELL, initially i thought was not going to be hard knowing i have 15 months of experience taking calls. during training i only laugh at those test they gave us (called TIMS); until i finally hit the floor (production). expectations are way way high being the pioneer batch and all; but somehow i manage not to meet them, hehe. i saw myself being worst at my job here. but lately i learned how to take it easy.

***BACK to the Yosi - at first it was one-stick-a-day, then it became two... three... four until i couldn't keep track. i'm hooked.

***A friend's ordeal - while i was lamenting over my break-up with JK, about the last week of November, a friend of mine in Batangas is freaking out, trying to get out of the hospital. Yes, this is about Angel. well, we all make mistakes. we just have to see it in the positive light. luckily, she managed to get through it with the help of some friends. i'm really happy for her.

***The Break-up - life is a sweet sweet bitch, i always say.

There you go, folks. it's pretty condensed, but it's better than writing an elaborate Review and not finishing it (haha).