whatever happened to bryan

lotsa hot issues in the office. right now i just would like you to read a letter which was just forwarded to me by a friend. you may not understand it since you don't know the person writing it, who it's for and who it's about. but let me give you a little overview of the story. there's a girl and boy, they're engaged. the boy met another girl in the office. broke up with his fiance and went with the new girl. here is the letter of the girl whose heart just got broken. you can feel her pain.


Hi Aprhil… Pleas tell to ur GD friend na huwag nya me sinisiraan sa mga tao dyan sa ACS just because gusto nyang lumandi & magwala. Kung ano ano ang mga sinasabi niyang dahilan sa mga tao diyan para matakpan yng pakikipaghiwalay nya… pinalalabas pa niyang masama ang ugali ko para masabi niyang ayaw na nya, pagod na siya. Pakisabing ang kapal ng mukha nya… sasabhin pa niyang now lng daw sya naging close kay marian at ngyon lng sya gumagawa ng move dahil wala na kami.. Bullshit sya! Kami pa lng, tinatawagan at tinetext na nya yng bitch na yan. All along, I thought nagbago na siya, coz he did it before sa teletech, kay KC… na kahit may anak na & nakikipag ayos sa asawa eh pinatulan pa rin niya. He was even blaming me na nagawa dw nya yon bcoz of me. Even yng pagkkayos namin sinasabi nyang me lng ang humingi ng 2nd chance… gago sya... sabhin mo magpakalalaki naman sya. Lahat na lng, sinisisi nya sakin. When he asked for a break, sbi nya gsto nyang mag isa… hindi na dw nya mgagawa yng mga ginagwa nya dati 100%... di na dw nya me mattxt & matatawagan… dahil yun ang kinapapagod nya.. and he wants to be alone muna. I trusted him… although ayokong magkahiwalay kmi, I gave him the space he wants. I even blame myself because kung ano anong masasakit na salita ang narinig ko from him… na parang ako yng may kasalanan kaya sya ganyan. Tapos ngyon malalaman ko na dinala nya sa tagaytay si marian using pa the girl’s car and they visited a common friend of ours. Sobrang kapal naman ng mukha nya kamo… para magpasikat sa kaibigan nya na nakahanap na siya ng 21 yr old bitch na may kotse at mayaman. Yung car pa tlaga ng girl yung pinagamit nya ha…Nagulat dw yng frnd nya dahil alam nila kmi pa ni bryan… Only people from ACS knows na wala na kami, but our friends… our close friends, common friends doesn’t know yet na wala na kami. He’s hiding it… he’s not even consulting yung mga friends namin na mas nakakakilala samin… kaya pla sya kating kating makipaghiwalay sakin is because nakahanap siya ng babaeng may kotse & mayaman na mapapaikot nya. Nagulat ako na gusto na agad nyang I end yng relationship… as in agad agad… a relationship that lasts for 3 yrs na hindi naman ako nakipaglokohan. Bigla na lng sya nagalit sakin ng walang reason… na halos ipagtabuyan nya me. Hwag kamo syang plastic, May 27 ang sweet p ng txt nya & ang ayos ayos pa nya.. then nung June 1 sasabhin nyang ayaw na nya, di n nya me ma ttxt blah blah blah… Nagpaasa lng sya ng tao, nakipagplano sya sakin, ngbigay sya ng engagement ring… nagpaayos pa sya ng bahay w/ the consent of his parents... we even consulted a doctor coz we’re planning to have a baby… I was under medication up to this month… tapos bigla nya kong gaganyanin… my family & my friends were really disappointed. Just when I thought dati lng nya yon ginagwa & now nagbago na siya coz he’s already matured… & should be matured at his age…hindi pla… he was the same old bryan… Totoo pla kamo yng kinkwento ng mama nya sakin. And please tell to that bitch Marian na hwag siyang matapang magsalita na “ if u want him.. eh di kunin mo” … Fucker kamo sya… hindi nya alam ang relasyon na sinisira nya… in the 1st place alam nyang may GF si Bryan pinatulan nya… Kmi pa lng ni Bry alam na nya yon dahil nakausap ko pa siya... even yng gap ng age nila di ba nya napansin? Tanga sya?! Ang lakas kamo ng loob nya magsalita ng ganon dahil nabili na ng pera nya yng pagkatao ni Bryan. I don’t want to look at Bryan that way… but with what he did… it really shows... napaka obvious. Nobody’s buying his explanations… coz both of us & everybody knows the truth.



I know... its weird for me to email you… coz we’re not that close nman, but I know that you would understand me… dahil babae ka rin… If you would still remember…sayo din me tumawag when I was bothered about the KC issue before sa Teletech J Thank you so much April… for being a friend… to Bryan & also to me.

And I also want you to know din kasi my side. Feeling ko ksi napakasama kong GF diyan… lalo na sa mga taong sinabihan ni bryan… I’m not what you think I am… I do what an ordinary GF do to his BF. In fairness to bryan, nramdaman ko naman yng pagmamahal & sacrifices nya... I guess, I just loved him that much… that I forgot to love myself… that I was taken for granted n dn… I never felt na pinaglaban nya me noon kay KC… mas nagmukha pang ako ang nanghimasok sa kanilang dalawa & now im experiencing it again… he would even say na kng lalayuan dw ba nya si marian eh titigil na ko sa pagttxt sa babaeng yon… grabe sya… he could do that for a girl that he only knew kalian lng over sakin na he have known for a long time… He was even saying na ok lng dw khit di nya mpasagot yung marian… till now, ganito n situation naming niloloko pa rin nya me.



It’s not true that I don’t trust him... coz kng ganon rin lng, dpat khit hanggang dyan sa ACS sinundan ko na sya… my mga kakilala kmi dyan… di imposibleng mkapasok me… or even sa Teletech pa lng dpat sumunod na me… Even my life pinagkatiwala ko sa kanya… I have this medical thingy case that I thought mauunawaan nya, kaya me pumayag. Coz I believe na kung merong taong dapat makaintindi & tanggapin yon is sya yon… but I guess ganon talaga. He would only say sorry… he just don’t know how much pain he caused me… he is so unfair & so selfish… he made a decision para lng sa sarili nyang happiness. He did not consider yng taong masasaktan nya… only for his own happiness. Well I think I’ved said too much na… Thanks for your time. Take care J … give my kisses to ur sweet angel (girl or boy b?) J



Tina



*sigghhhh*

sleepless

sleepless. sleepless. sleepless. i was so fuckin sleepy but i knew i was going to be scanned so i had to fake some energy, though it's very evident that my voice is giving in. and of course i still have the time to visit the cafe ang write this blog. hahahhahahah! but then again my head is empty, so i really hafta' go now.

happy happy joy joy

time runs so fast. June is almost over, HELLO July! WoooHooo! I had the best REST DAY ever! and i didn't do anything progressive at all. i just ate, slept, texted, called JK, watched tv, listen music, do a Top 5.. but i had a blast for some reason. maybe because the pressure to make money went away. not that i have some, but since we are not allowed to go on OverTime, i'm not pressured to go on OverTime! Hooray! it's like a fishbone has just been taken off my throath. it's a mental relief! i better enjoy this while it lasts... and i'm so so happy because the Top 5 which is sort of a review in a way? that i posted in the PUPIL YG? and in my new blog? has gotten some attention... wooohooo!!! hehe, it's a crappy write-up and i think i would have done better if i didn't act all impulsive again, but what the hell.. it's already posted and it cannot be edited. a lister said it wasn't boring at all... *blush* you will find it on one of my links SOON. i would have to find a better skin first because it's a special blog. (=

it's raining outside, oh my. have to pick up laundry and catch up on sleep. ta-ta!

silent conversation

i'm sitting here. for almost 2 hours now. typing something for PUPIL YG. i noticed the person beside me is uhm, deaf? she uses sign language to chat online. of course through webcam. sheesh, look at the power of technology. amazing. she seems truly amused with their conversation and i'm totally amused as well, eavesdropping somehow. but it can't be all that sinful to do that since i don't really understand what they're conversing about. hehe. there's a guy behind her too that totally glued at what she's doing. probably as amazed as i am. i also remember seeing a couple of people doing sign language while i was riding a jeepney last month. it was cool because it was quite but they seem to be having a great time talking. hehe. i would have loved to steal a photo of that but it may look disrespectful to them. i'm just fascinated by how they live like normal people do. it's great.

haaaalllllpppppp!!!!

i can't get my thoughts together. i can't type well. it's freezing where i'm at. i am inside a freakin fridge. a darn big fridge with humans and pc's on it. halp! halp!

whateverwhateverwhatever

Amazing T-shirt Folding!



conventional, eh?

Aw, feels like a truck had run over my back. hurts like hell. Yesterday i slept at about 6pm. My roommate came home crying on the phone talking to her parents. Her Sup' is a whore. Does nothing but plots genius ways to make her and her click's life miserable. i feel really sorry for her. she loves the job so much. she may go for a drasctic career change if things in their office goes out wrong. I woke up at 5am. ate, watched tv, and ate again. i packed the Oven Toaster, I brought it back to Landmark. It was defective. what's new? They replaced it even though i lost the receipt, thank god. I hopped on the bus to go back home from Landmark, when i realized... i left my keys at home. damn. now i have to wait for my roommate. So here I am. screen-sucking again. *sigh* i've put something new on the Link lineup, check it out. my chatmates have logged out. It's almost 6pm, so it's the end of their work day. good for them. i still have work later. deym. but before that, i'm invited for a drinking spree at LKG. Err. I wish i can be drunk and answer calls?

By the way, KUDOS! to PUPIL for winning BEST PERFORMANCE BY A NEW GROUP at the AWIT AWARDS. (=

My mother texted me today, she said she's coming over next week, just for a day and she wants me to take a leave off work. urgh!

the late New Year's Resolution

i don't make New Year's Resolution. Probably because of the obvious reason that it only last until the first day of the year. sometimes even sooner. however, i've evaluated myself lately. i never seem to have self-control. let alone self-direction. i have to do something about it, otherwise...

hence, i came up with my late New Year's resolution, here goes:

1) SAVE SOME FOR THE RAINY DAYS

2) Do "OT" 2 hrs at least every workday

3) Keep off from Costly things, like:
- gigs
- chocolates
- useless mags
- stupid useless equips
- trips to the malls
- obssessive screen sucking
- band shirts
- morning McDo pig-out
- TimeZone's drum-revo. get over it!

4) BUDGET BUDGET BUDGET don't spend money everyday

5) Go on DIET. It's good fo your body and your pocket

6) Text "ate Donna" every now and then, or better yet, visit Pasay. lest you'll instigate bad citicisms. very bad.

7) Control this ELY BUENDIA addiction. think: you're 23 years old!!

8) Lessen outgoing calls to JK. think: it's not a landline phone??

9) Look at self in the mirror every 15 minutes (important)

10) Find motivation within youself not outside yourself

11) Stop drinking coffee

12) Kill any addiction to a human being

13) Remember: Your life is at the tip of your tongue

14) Find a hobby

15) Finish reading your books!!!

16) Buy what you NEED to buy

17) Get a point of view. Whateverittakes, GET ONE!


Whow, that's a REALLY long list. damn, no wonder no New Year's Resolution was ever fulfilled. Hahahahah! Anyway, i'l try to go one-by-one on fulfilling that LIST. It's the list of all-time. It's a fllfill-it-or-you-re-damned-forever thing.

i can explain...

woke up at about 8 this morning. funny. i was supposed to go to 2 events last night. never went to any of 'em. instead, i put a mudpac on slept the night away. damn, i miss sleeping beneath the big moon. haha! Sue was texting me, and Bryan was calling me over and over again until my cellphone declared battery empty. yesterday i started my day by going to the mall with Chanel. we played endlessly at timezone until our money almost ran out. however, i was still at Level E in the drum-revo, tsk! tsk! we also watched The Omen. boy did it scare us. we were both crumpled in our seats, eyes shut off at every scary scene. hahaha! Chanel was like.. "i hate you stre, i hate you stre.." bwahahhaha it's fun to scare one's self. and then we went shopping for undies, belts and beauty stuff. we got home at about 9. tired tired tired. who can expect me to get off the bed?!?

Relationhips on a Microscope (with Chaii and Badeth)

well... lotsa heart's been breakin these days in my side of the world. Bry just called it quits with Tina. after 3 years? Uuuhhh.. how sad. Tina was asking what happened to Bry... which is the same question we all have in our minds. there's no third party. he just got sick of all the jealousies. after all the've been through he'd quit just because of that? some of us think it's because of the people he's sorrounded with lately. his so called "barkada?" his "toma-buddies?" some of us think it's Tina's mistake, some thinks they're just not meant to be. hrm, that's life. Bry had to tell us the whole story in our AUX-8 this morning. and Armand came! shocked at the event, he confessed he also called it quits with his 6 or 7-years girlfriend Grace as we went along. whatever happened to the world? last week i almost had it with JK. we cooled off for some days. i just felt it wasn't right. you can read it in my previous blog. now Jane and Irene are mocking me because apparently for them, i don't have a word of honor. well y'know me. implusive as ever. i just don't want to do a false move. i think it's too early for us to decide if we should throw away the love and the countless great memories. however, when it's time to decide i know i can decide. i did it before why can't i do it again? with our situation now, it just seem quite unfair to end it without a bit of justice. his defense was somehow valid, 'though out of this world... besides, i prayed for this to work, if i quit just like that it would seem like i dont have the faith?

also had a chat with Badeth today. that's why it took me about 5 hours to stay here and figure out what to write about.haha! we were talking about Bry all the time. she said we should make a show. i said yeah! we'll call it Relationships on a Microscope! hahahha. tsk! too bad though i won't be at JR's bday party tommorow in Pandacan. PUPIL got a gig tommorow in cafe lupe! ugh.. i've given Sue and JR (girl) my word.

"bahala na si batman!"

brain, where art thou?

Listening to:INFRA-RED (placebo)


Someone call the ambulance
There's going to be an accident
I'm coming up on infra red
There is no running that can hide you
Cos I can see in the dark
I'm coming up on infra red
Forget your running I will find you
(Find you)



a few minutes ago, i've been flipping through a part of my "past," checking on how they are presently doing. played the thoughts of "what-could-have-beens," god it was like exuviating my skin. a feeling worse than acquiring the allergies i had a couple of months ago. ugh. i feel dizzy. i could not be "not-over" it. it's not healthy. it's not good for me.

mind off it. erase! erase! erase!

i love my hair today, by the way. the conditioner works magic. hehe.

she's not pretty. dennis was right. she's not pretty. he's not that hot, either. but. i miss the guy. (what the hell?! chaii?!)

sorry that was not me. bwahahaha! it was the flip side of me. the past that should have been incinerated from my memory a very long time ago. i believe it was at that time that i lost my brain. now i couldn't find it no more. whatever happened to it? *sigh* give me a strange word, in a few mintes i'd forget it. so man, i woudln't wanna go back to that time ever again. but why does something draw me back to it? like a magnet? or maybe it has never left my head? well, when u loose a speacial part of yourself, you'd always have a trace to that someone who got it, right? hahay. what a silly thought. somebody savvveeeeee meeeeeee!!!

6 months and counting

amazing. this has been my longest-running blog ever! haha! i guess "simple" is how i want it all to be afterall. (= i don't know 'bout you, but a BLOG equals to a HOME to me. that goes to show how essential it is to me to express the recesses of my demented psycho-blabber head.

anyhow, today i read this mag fudge? they interviewed Tom Hanks. he starred in this movie that you might have watched already: da vinci code. as i read on, i texted Chanel "i was right, chan! the girl in the movie was the same girl in Amelie and A Long Engagement! Audrey Tautou!" her reply was like.. "Ok..?" hehe. i was right. because i liked her in Amelie. It was a great movie.

god it's pouring outside. got no umbrella whatsoever. so u can sy i'm stuck here until it stops pouring.

breaking the silence

it's such a bad timing. supposedly i have so much to say about today. if not for this little thing called "pathetic emotion" that's been bugging me. can't focus on just "enjoying myself."

well, i was contemplating about what dr phil had said on tv (yes, i'm a fan now) about anger. hate. and all other emotion that cause relationships to fall into pieces. one thing he pointed out was having "too much expectation." and when your expectation is not met, you sulk in the corner. how true. so he said it's better to expect less. i feel that it's what i've been going through. expecting too much and getting less. how tragic. hence, the motto: "if you can't change him, leave him." my friends were right. they said it seems i'm avoiding something. the point is, i'm easy to please. really easy to please. missing out on pleasing me is like... unimaginable. something must be wrong in the picture. and i don't want to change people. even god (as per movie: bruce almighty) cannot change a person. ever heard of the gift of free will? oh well...

i'm going home in a bit. i'm at some internet cafe now. today we watched X-Men in G4, played drum-revo in TIMEZONE, and went bowling in Makati Square. we did it all in a day. hehe. me, Irene, Jane, and the boys, bryan, dha, jay-r, ryan and ashley. it was fun. clean good fun.