the boy who makes me crazy

at about 1am today, Gibs texted me. he said "HI, here's new number. how r u?" i texted back at about 3am and i was like "gibs! thank god you texted! i feel totally miserable! i wanna die!" after exchanging whatnots, i didn't feel miserable anymore. all emotional baggage just went away. somehow i found comfort again; just like going back home. it's amazing and in a way magical. it's a weird feeling. a blissful emotion i can't contain.

then again, no matter what a stupid good-for-nothing bitch-slapping asshole he is, those few sweet days with him was unforgettable. why wouldn't it be? he was my crush from the day i met him in 2001 until the day i hit my head in the wall and realized he's a total jerk. what i remember the most though was the last night we were together. there were fireworks everywhere. haha! we walked about 2 kilometers at the wee hours of the morning. we passed through the city's public market, walking tipsy with his arm around my shoulder and we weren't official lovers that time, i guess we never were ever, what i only knew then was that i was head over heels over him (for some werird reason). then we had to sober up so we bought some coffee on this mobile coffeeshop, if you know wht i mean, haha! in Cogon Market...i was hesistant to try it at first, but i thought it would be a really great experience and it made it more magical. why i think that way before I DONT KNOW! i didn't care then if he had 5 ladies all connected with him at the same time.

now he said he's living in a dorm. the same dorm we last went to when we got all drunk and crazy. i think that's what i like about him. he makes me crazy. damn i want to be crazy again. with him.