the offender

life is a bitch. i was late at work last night because that freakin' bus had to wait for 30 million passengers. it took me an hour and a half to travel from home to work. how pathetic is that. when i finnally got there, it was 11:30, just in time, i asked Jane if it's AVAIL or QUEUING, she said it's QUEUING. great. with my mind flustered over the bus experience, i never thought she was actually kidding. her face was dead serious! i asked xtian and the others, they agreed to her with a dead serious face! so i didn't log in right away. until i asked DENNIS, out of instinct, said it wasn't queuing afterall. it was 11:35. putangina. Strike 1. So i asked Jane why she did that, she went on ranting that it was all my fault anyway. i told her about the bus incident, she said "no, you shouldn't blame the bus or anyone else, IT's ALL YOUR FAULT!" k, whatever. i said to myself. Strike 2. then there were several uncalled for strikes she made, which i ignored, whatever her problem was i got no clue. until i was trying to log in on one of the pc behind her, i couldn't seem to log in, it turned out i was putting in a wrong username. so i told the IT guy, "gosh, i'm so stupid! stupid! stupid!" as i laughed to myself. Jane suddenly went, "oh you've always been stupid..." i said "what?!" she didn't even had the courtesy to say "oh nothing.." but she uttered it again.. "you've always been stupid..." and i go... "yeah, and you've always been smart.." i was dying to say, "that's why you were transferred to P-POD last Feb. because you're SO smart!" but i didn't say it. P-POD is where agents go when they FAIL the QA, to get some training. (that's how lax our company is) anyway, that was Strike 3 and i've had it. she was speaking to me after then but i couldn't hear any word she say. i'm completely deaf when it comes to her now. sheesh, i realized i couldn't blame Jaynish for doing what he did. she has a horrible attitude.

anyway. i got a hundred in QA today. finally something brighter to think of today.

transpiration

Playing: Poor Little Rich Boy (regina spektor)

Oh Regina, what a voice! lovely piano, lovely music! it's like Bjork but with distinctive lyrics and without the swan outfit. haha! i don't know where she camefrom, but she looks Russian to me. I just got to listen to her when i was listening to Yahoo Radio. http://www.reginaspektor.com/index2.html

Anyway. Here are bullet points of things that transpired:


++read CURSOR yesterday, ely talked about the Monster Mall in the middle of the dessert which used to be a sea? haha.


++we went out of town last May21 with the team. we went to san pablo laguna. i'd like to post photos but i don't want more hassles. i've had too much of that for today. however it was fun.


++i now wear glasses. i got a 50/50 vision. so i'm wearing glasses to correct it. looks cute.


++went to Saguijo in May19. brushed elbows with bogs and dok. ely was in hot pink. i think i even wrote something about it on this blog. haha. i'm an addict.


++suddenly i liked listening to Session Road? how queer.


++i'm not a drama-queen. i'm just cleaning out my closet.


++i got my player back. i got SURFERNANDO back!!! wooohoooo!!! American gurl!


++Changed of rest days. YEY. it's now thursday and friday. what? FLYDAY??? hahaha!! to kick it off i plan to go to Cafe Lupe on June 9th. I smell Pupil... hahahhaha...


++i tried some Crunches. goddammit, my tummy is hopeless!

Oh my time runs so fast. it's 9. i'm hungry. gotta run.

"walang gana"

i'm surfing. reading e-mails. and wallowing every once in a while.

i spent my rest day at San Pablo, Laguna. we had a TEAM BUILDING. it was a real adventure on the way to the Rest House. we almost got lost, it rained on us 3 times, we run over 4 "kalabaws," we had music blasting off the speaker, and Fred caught mouth open while sleeping... hahahha! The Rest House was a bit scary. It was full of antiques. The owner was an antique collector. So it was really creepy. The boys drunk their hearts out, while i and jane slept the whole time. first thing in the morning, i and Bry went on some mini-tour around the place. It was a romantic place. But i imagine fags inhabiting the it, and it isn't a good picture. anyhow, after making our breakfast up, we went to the man-made falls to eat in the middle of it. yep. we ate our breakfast in the middle of the river. it was life the e'heads' "with a smile" vid version 2, wherein they were eating in the middle of the pool, only ours was a river. hehe. it was a very cool way to relax after a long hours at work absorbing the anger of american idiots.

however, as much as i'd like to REALLY enjoy, i can't, JK was in the hospital at that time, diagnosed for Dengue. 'talked to him last night though. i believe he's OK now.

i still feel a bit crappy. i unsubscribed from the eraserheads mailing list. it's useless. i feel i also need to kill some things in my life. just don't know when yet.

all bout ely

(posted this in some YahooGroups)

wasted and alone, i braved to attend the Teatrock gig last May 18, Thursday at Saguijo... Otherwise, my effort to file a leave for that night would be for nought. i arrived at about 11.30pm carrying a bag of stress, but wearing a PUPIL shirt nonetheless. i believe i was the only one who wore that shirt that night, thank god. i believe some of those who got the shirt have size complaints? mine was perfect for me. I met what BOGS called the POWER LISTERS. they were nice and all. i met Sue and JR as well, who patiently waited with me for a jeepney at the end of the night. they are my fellow newbies.

right. isn't this supposed to be "all about ely?!" u may be thinking.

ok, here goes nothing.

PUPIL performed at about 1am. i was stading behind two pretty young chix who had their glossy digicam with them blocking my point of sight to the person i waited to watch upclose for a long time. great. previous performances bored me. but when ely came up in front, i can't help but be awed. i felt like in puberty again. it wasn't my first time to watch him play live (actually 2nd) but seeing him never fails to amaze me.the first thing i noticed was: "god i love that skin!" does he do facial every week? does he have make up on? i don't think so. he was clad in this cool pink long sleeve, a black tie and slightly ripped jeans. "god, look at the man of my dreams, so freakin' near yet so freakin' far" i thought. i wondered what he was thinking when he was staring at my cellphone lens while i was trying to video him singing Dianetic. when he went up the flatform, i told Sue "he looks drunk!"
i repeated it twice but i don't think she understood me by the loud noise sorrounding the apartment-sized Saguijo. the whole time they played i was in trance. God could have had me killed that night and i would have died a happy person. it was heaven. almost.

it sounds crazy and exaggerated. but it's true. i'm 23 years old but i still love him like i loved him when i was 11.

when it was over, i saw him go out and went to his car. he might be real soaked up with sweat as we all were. the POWER LISTERS decided to look for him when they were done taking pictures with Yan and talking with Dok (had a photo with DOk too! thanks to the pushy Ianne, heheh, thanks girl). outside we found ely, i asked him to sign my copy of Beautiful Machine which he gladly accomodated. He was with Schizo, or we know here in the Mailing List as Liam? ring a bell? he was trying to introduce Schizo to us and the power listers were like.. "err, we don't know him" something in me would like to protest and raise my hand up to say "I KNOW HIM ELY! HE WAS IN ONE OF YOUR SONGS, HE MADE THE 'HEADS' WEBSITE, AND HE'S ONE OF YOUR AVID FAN!" well, those thoughts could only remain in my head. i remembered the Surfernando cd and asked Schizo on where Timoti was, then i went and spoke with Tim. (i got the SFN's American Gurl for 200 bucks, he saw my pupil shirt, tried to swap it with another copy of SFN, i went "no?" hehe) when tim and his cohorts left, ely was just there, sitting, probably waiting for his girl Dianne. no one was talking to him. the POWER LISTERS were joking around with Bogs the chic magnet and Dok, another chic magnet. i was there, staring at him.. wishing i have the guts to go and talk to him. "so near yet so far"

after a few minutes they went home, they even waived BYE before blasting off.

"Bye ely, c ya when i c ya!" i said to myself.

<5> one more time

i posted my signed <5> CD last wk, now i'm gonna post JK's <5> signed CD.. ishoooooooccccooooollll... the PC i'm using is so lame it doesn't have micromdiaflash. however here's the pic.

Wednesday

the sun's so freakin hot. i'm melting. so i had to go to the mall. to keep myself frm melting.

i think we're going to watch Da Vinci Code tonight. so i have to go.

bad day but not so

*yawn*

i hate this day. first, the keyboard sucks. second, JK showing off his ungodly personality again. third, i pronounced "DIFF" as "DEFF" this morning. what a shame. (hahahah) and i got pissed with my 2 officemates at lunchtime, i have no plans of talking to 'em anytime soon. i only got confused about this cutoff for filing overtimes that i couldn't get my head and tongue together and they were laughing in secret for crying out loud, what the heck is their problem?!? so i got my head together and stopped talking to them. for fuck's sake gimme' a break.

it was also funny today i was about to go home, i sneaked out from Jane and Rey, breakfast even in fastfoods would be too expensive for me now that i have declared bancruptcy. however, Badeth texted me, said she was at McDo and alone. In other words she was hoping i'd join them at breakfast. so i got guilty, stopped the jeepney i was riding on at greenbelt and walked my way to McDo Paseo/Ayala ave, urgh.. imagine how far that is. it was fun though, Marian was there, told us her story about a sexully abusive teammate. how insane. her teammate was caressing her naked arms when she was half-asleep, she woke up, thought it was some other guy so she strike with her sharp tongue... the abuser, startled... shoook her instead and said "hoy nanaginip ka, nananaginip ka!" wtf? she thought,"hindi ako nananaginip!"
sheesh, it's sad when u can't trust the people around you.

anyhow, i learned something new today though. i learned about EUSTRESS and DISTRESS. hahahaha. it's an email fwdd by Badeth, it's real good. things that stressed people should be reminded about. Bryan read that to the TEAM this morning, everyone paid attention unlike the way we do when we just talk about plan Team Stats. hehe.

Well, everytime i'm stressed, i just look at this picture. a signed Cd of <5>, and i know i'd be fine in the next minute. isn't that silly. i have wanted a signed CD by 'em for a long long time. can't blame me.

the mania begins

don't u just miss this band? the humble beginning. the rugged looks. the innocence. their crazy antics. the friendship. the music. the "tagapluto-ka-kung-hindi-mo-sila-kilala-days." the converse shoes and ripped jeans that became a nationwide hit. the eraserheads.

they will never be forgotten.

the declaration

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i am declaring bancruptcy
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to yzziks

days, months, years have passed
you still live in the crevices of my head
maybe it's true?
are you made of glue?

loosing it

tired. wrung out. exhausted. i'm loosing it. however, my mind is still in a daze about the saGuijo gig i attended last May 2nd. i didn't know Raims and MIke D would be so nice. Raims signed my <5> on the floor LP and Mike sold me shirts for 200 bucks each. i beleive that's a discounted price. ehehehe. and also it's nice to know that i'm taller than IYA nad MYRENE of IMAGO. hahahhaha!

i'd love to sleep but i can't. got lots of things to do. suddenly my energy is pumped up, huh? but uh...it ain't a good hobby to abuse one's body.

guess what, Irene's asking me to find a place in Makati for us to live in together. i know she's been dying to ask that, but it's too late now. maybe if jas, my roommate, decides to go on flight. hehehe. but i doubt it. i hope she learned her lesson. anyhow, i'm in no mood to chatter-tatter. i'm... tired.

happy joy joy

today i learned to play pool... on-line. hehe. i'm not that good, but i believe "practice makes perfect," and oh, check out my TAGBOARD! weee! check the sidebar of this blog, u can't miss it... please don't be shy to post stuff. although it looks a bit odd because i wanted this blog to be a one-way thing. i should be the only one speaking my mind out, but what the hell, i'll give y'all a chance to spit out your itsy bitsy thoughts. haha! ain't i generous.

i spent the night in laguna. i accompanied my mother. in the morning we met with Rea. My brother's guuurrllfrriieennnddd. she's nice but i understand why. hahahahha! ho-hum. i miss my jk more and more. anyway, at long last we're gonna watch THE WILD later. it's a one-month plan, actually. originally though it was ICE AGE? and since everybody have seen it, it's OFF the NOW SHOWING list. THE WILD would be the only available sane movie to feast on at the theaters. and i have to go. have a lot of things to do.

not in the mood

not in the mood for jokes. thanks to rey.
not in the mood to pay bills. thanks to the stupid net cafe attendant.
not in the mood to go on overtime. thanks to this freakin' headache!
not in the mood to think of jk. thanks to ......?
not in the mood to spend. thanks to my mother.
not in the mood to post at the ely buendia YG. thanks to the moderator. what a moron.

ugh!

this is not going to be a nice day.