A day in a life (alone)

February 23, 2006 : 4.45PM
Location: Paranaque

Can't sleep. Got work at 9pm. Bored. Totally. Hence, I'm writing this. Been rethinking my present situation. I like it like this. I wanted this for a very long time. Living independently. However, I'm not sure if my budget would fit into my needs and wants. Sure, my brother's always there to lend a little help. I don't want to depend on anybody no more.

What I did is a very bold move. Moving out of my family, relatives. I didn't have much in my account but I was always thinking if I won't do it now then when? probably never. No. It's my life, I should live it the way i want to. My relatives are suckers. They suck you in, pretend they care, so you depend on them and be the pawn in their complex family chess game. I'm sick of it. I want freedom.

It turns out though that freedom is a lot expensive than what i expected it to be. or maybe i'm just overpricing it? *chuckles* When I was living with my cousin's all I do is lock up in the room read or sleep. Can't watch TV freely which is my most favorite hobby. Can't eat as much as I want to. Can't speak my mind without inviting a heated argument. I felt totally stupid, timid and deprived in a crowd of morons. Now I get to do what I want. The thing there is: there is nothing much to do. If there is it would cost me, and i'm already broke. However, I'll get though this. I have a good feeling.

Nothing interesting on Tv. I tried channel surfing for Porn stuff but was unsuccessful. The only thing baring the triceps on the TV screen is Jhonny Bravo which is now locked between the grip of KingKong. How unsexy. So I watched PBB instead. First time to watch the episode for th whole day. "Budoy is cute," my roommate said last night. I laughed real loud. Budoy is freaking hilarious. Especially when he led the dance choreography of his team in this dance/ktv performance contest of sorts. Hahaha! I also got to watch Gridlock'd starring 2pac this morning. Cool sedated movie. Watched Erin Brockovich for the nth time. Julia is lovely. Other than those, all else were crap on TV. Literally and figuratively.

I did something productive though today to lift the bore for a moment, I painted my toe nails velvet! Because i'm planning to wear skirt, shirt and fli-flips later to work. Screw the dresscode! Hehe

And on the other end... I got to watch the News today (Oh, boy!). POliticians make me sick. so Showbiz. They talk as if we're clueless of their personal agenda. They talk of peace and welfare of the country (go to LEYTE and DONATE YOUR MILLIONS maybe that would create a bit of welfare, eh?) evidently based on facts and history they're lipsyncing what they're saying. Poor country of mine. Good thing there's Sugarfree. (off topic, keber?!)