A day in a life (alone)

February 23, 2006 : 4.45PM
Location: Paranaque

Can't sleep. Got work at 9pm. Bored. Totally. Hence, I'm writing this. Been rethinking my present situation. I like it like this. I wanted this for a very long time. Living independently. However, I'm not sure if my budget would fit into my needs and wants. Sure, my brother's always there to lend a little help. I don't want to depend on anybody no more.

What I did is a very bold move. Moving out of my family, relatives. I didn't have much in my account but I was always thinking if I won't do it now then when? probably never. No. It's my life, I should live it the way i want to. My relatives are suckers. They suck you in, pretend they care, so you depend on them and be the pawn in their complex family chess game. I'm sick of it. I want freedom.

It turns out though that freedom is a lot expensive than what i expected it to be. or maybe i'm just overpricing it? *chuckles* When I was living with my cousin's all I do is lock up in the room read or sleep. Can't watch TV freely which is my most favorite hobby. Can't eat as much as I want to. Can't speak my mind without inviting a heated argument. I felt totally stupid, timid and deprived in a crowd of morons. Now I get to do what I want. The thing there is: there is nothing much to do. If there is it would cost me, and i'm already broke. However, I'll get though this. I have a good feeling.

Nothing interesting on Tv. I tried channel surfing for Porn stuff but was unsuccessful. The only thing baring the triceps on the TV screen is Jhonny Bravo which is now locked between the grip of KingKong. How unsexy. So I watched PBB instead. First time to watch the episode for th whole day. "Budoy is cute," my roommate said last night. I laughed real loud. Budoy is freaking hilarious. Especially when he led the dance choreography of his team in this dance/ktv performance contest of sorts. Hahaha! I also got to watch Gridlock'd starring 2pac this morning. Cool sedated movie. Watched Erin Brockovich for the nth time. Julia is lovely. Other than those, all else were crap on TV. Literally and figuratively.

I did something productive though today to lift the bore for a moment, I painted my toe nails velvet! Because i'm planning to wear skirt, shirt and fli-flips later to work. Screw the dresscode! Hehe

And on the other end... I got to watch the News today (Oh, boy!). POliticians make me sick. so Showbiz. They talk as if we're clueless of their personal agenda. They talk of peace and welfare of the country (go to LEYTE and DONATE YOUR MILLIONS maybe that would create a bit of welfare, eh?) evidently based on facts and history they're lipsyncing what they're saying. Poor country of mine. Good thing there's Sugarfree. (off topic, keber?!)

Pipi

i lost my voice. dunno where i left it. so i didnt work last night and i think i wouldn't work tonight. again. damn. i'm so busted at payday.

Nothin, really

whow. hi.
ain't i excited to move out. hehe. i have looked out for some stuff i would need for the new place and fitting my budget in.
it's funny, some friends are still learning i and jk are back together. hehe, is it hard to believe? maybe because i grieved real loud. when we got back, i hushed off. anyway.. i'm excited about moving out. :D

seen the pic of my new BF? isn't he cute? haha!

i slept the whole freakin rest day! so i know i'd be fine to go to work tonight even if i don't sleep today. my back hurts tho.

and guess what, i bought a new towel to activate my MAKRO card hehe. i want to buy a digicam. hrm. slr digicam. **dreaming**

Meet my new BOYFRIEND

Bogs of PuPIL.

(in my dreams, of course, hehe)

adik

im in a daze.

syndrome

screen sucking. that's what i'm doing. i've been sitting here for 2 hours and i haven't got a thing to write about. although prior to this my thoughts were as solid as a rock. now it's gone with the wind. fuck.
ok, maybe im just tired. yeah, i think so. it's 5am. feb4, 2006. i just arrived from the takipsilim gig. i'm exhausted.
it's 6:05am damn.. an hour has passed. and nothing. this is lame. no girl. don't fall for it. you're loosing urself. don't dive into that black hole inside your head. the e'heads are gone. get over it! jk is busy, leave him alone! jai is happy, let it go!
god. i think i'm sick. i need a cure. eraserheads in my head. fuck shut up.

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